I Cheated

On Thursday I had the ultrasound to make sure Baby Boy (whose previous name is officially up in the air, so for those of you whom might have heard it, we're back to the drawing board) is growing properly (sans blood clotting) and I'm so (SO, SO, SOOOO) happy to report that he's healthy and happy and very active.

It was a little difficult for the ultrasound tech to get good measurements because he would.not.hold.still. but she said (with a "fair amount of confidence") that he's approximately 5 pounds and is actually measuring a couple weeks ahead and is looking beautiful. Blood flow is good (no clotting - YAY!) and there looks to be plenty of fluid in there as well. I prayed a prayer of thankfulness and sighed a sigh of relief. Our son is looking perfectly healthy.

After the ultrasound tech got all the "technical" stuff out of the way, she informed me that our doctor's office just got equipped to do 3D ultrasounds and asked if I had a few minutes for her to take some pictures and practice.

Lemme think about it. YES, YESIDO.

It was amazing. Even though his little arms were crossed in front of his face, she could still get a couple of shots and it was just amazing to see the shape of his nose and the same furrow in his brow that so resembles Carter when he was born (think, "cute grumpy old man furrow"). I was so excited to see him...but then I immediately felt guilty.

I felt like I cheated.

Honestly, it felt like a groom seeing the bride for the first time on their wedding day before she walked down the isle...or skipping ahead and reading the last couple of pages of a book because you just can't stand to wait to the end to find out what happens.

Silly? Probably. But it was really odd seeing his features so clearly and yet not getting to kiss them.

Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't take it back. I loved seeing his sweet little face (the shape of his nose and his chubby cheeks) and knowing (seeing with my own eyes) that he's doing amazing was beyond good for this Mama's heart. I love him so much!

Five more weeks!

:: And I would share a couple of pictures, but I had forgotten to bring a CD with me, and our scanner isn't working. UGH. (And sorry!) ::